I have now reduced the amount of Lamotrigine I’m taking by half & am on a lower dosage of Venlafaxine, too. I’m actually feeling better already. I can feel emotions again. I am interested in doing things, getting excited about stuff, making goals, etc., which is a first in like years. I even cooked last night. Cleaning was still excruciatingly difficult, but I did it.
I did my intake appt w/ the hypnotherapist, and I actually really love her already. I’m more optimistic about therapy than I have been in ages now. We did a lil test to see how receptive I’d be, and while it was only a few minutes & kind of hard at first, very soon my whole body was relaxing, which caused my mind to quiet down. It felt really good. I can’t wait to do it again. I just wish it were covered by insurance. Le sigh.
I need to find a way to start paying for daily vitamins/supplements since they’re not covered by insurance either. I pretty much know which are the best to take, but they’re all expensive. I hope to start exercising again soon, too. Sleep & appetite have even improved a bit already. I’m going to bed earlier than 3am & not sleeping in past noon. Major improvement. Still tired & bleh feeling, but at least I have more day again.
I’m still working on appealing the disability claim & this time I think I’m going to go more of the autism/emotional dysregulation route because I really don’t think bipolar is an accurate diagnosis anymore. It’s primarily biochemical & I’m not responding to psych drugs. All my symptoms/difficulties can be explained by the combination of borderline & autism, too. I wanna start looking into more local adult autism support things, but it’s such a small town, I haven’t heard of many resources. Maybe I can start a meetup group or something.
Speaking of autism support, pictured is me in my new noise canceling headphones & new floofy mongoose onesie thanks to the Amazon gift cards SPARK for Autism gave me in exchange for taking their research surveys for autistic adults! They email me whenever a new one comes out. They’re awesome. Thanks, SPARK! 🙂
Anyway, I THINK that’s mostly all that’s going on currently. There are some other things I’ve been thinking about, but they’re not related to health/life updates, so I’ll mention them in another post.
As always, thanks for your support & encouragement.
You’re good peeps. Much love to all