Welcome!

If you’re not sure how you ended up here and what this website is all about or if you’re just looking for more info, please allow me to introduce myself as the host of this site. About Jax Name: Jax Gaius Bayne Pronouns: they/them or he/him Neurotype: Autistic with cPTSD Heritage: Catalan-Cuban & European AmericanContinue reading “Welcome!”

Vulnerability & Shame

What makes you feel vulnerable? What triggers feelings of shame for you?

The harder it is to open ourselves to the possibility of being vulnerable, the more likely we have experienced some form of trauma in our lives. The earlier on in our lives that we were exposed to something traumatic, the more ingrained those neural pathways are, meaning the more likely the roads that leads to us experiencing feelings like shame are well travelled.

Recent Thought Trains

Part of my black or white, all or nothing, rigid thinking includes me vacillating between thinking that I have super awesome unique talents, skills, traits, and attributes that are worthwhile, positive, useful, helpful, and beneficial and feeling that my strong personality, preferences, opinions, and ways of expressing myself are too difficult for people to find worth tolerating or putting up with.

This World is NOT for YOU

I’m not a political person in the least. It was after studying government & politics that I lost all political inclinations. Similarly, I’m also not a social activist, or someone who really concerns themselves with what’s going on in the world today unless it has to do with kittens and/or new academic/scientific discoveries & breakthroughs.Continue reading “This World is NOT for YOU”