All I really want in life is to become a genuinely good, nice, kind, caring, productive person.
What makes you feel vulnerable? What triggers feelings of shame for you?
The harder it is to open ourselves to the possibility of being vulnerable, the more likely we have experienced some form of trauma in our lives. The earlier on in our lives that we were exposed to something traumatic, the more ingrained those neural pathways are, meaning the more likely the roads that leads to us experiencing feelings like shame are well travelled.
“It occurred to me that ‘choose’ and ‘pick’ are synonyms. You can choose to learn from your mistakes and turn your pain into something kind, or you can pick your scabs and pick a fight.”
During this incredibly difficult time, I’ve been fortunate to have a comfortable home, a good support system, & my needs mostly provided for by my parents & the State. I’m in relatively decent health & am an incredibly introverted person by nature who typically prefers to be alone, so for me, this seclusion hasn’t really been a hardship but actually quite a blessing in many ways.