Well! It has been a while! Hello, friends! How are you all doing? It sure has been a wild few years. In the midst of all the chaos, I chose to retreat within myself, but not in the self-isolating way I normally have done. Instead of being avoidant, I chose to be present with myself,Continue reading “2022 Life Update”
All I really want in life is to become a genuinely good, nice, kind, caring, productive person.
I haven’t made a blog post in a while.
I haven’t updated my social media accounts either.
So, why is this?
Here’s the full story.
What makes you feel vulnerable? What triggers feelings of shame for you?
The harder it is to open ourselves to the possibility of being vulnerable, the more likely we have experienced some form of trauma in our lives. The earlier on in our lives that we were exposed to something traumatic, the more ingrained those neural pathways are, meaning the more likely the roads that leads to us experiencing feelings like shame are well travelled.
“It’s funny, isn’t it? The things that matter? The truth is none of it matters. And the truth is all of it matters tremendously. It’s a wonder any of us ever get out of bed at all. And yet, we get out of bed.”
I remember feeling very uncomfortable watching The Ring for the first time w/ all the girls in my grade who were laughing when something messed up happened.
So, I’m about to be going down to 50mg of lamotrigine – I was at 200mg for years, so that’s pretty huge – next week. I’m still at 25mg of venlafaxine, but I was on 150mg for almost the same amount of time that I was on lamotrigine for. I’m hoping to be off of lamotrigine by the end of January if not sooner & off of venlafaxine by March if not sooner.
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